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its been such a long time since i have even looked at livejournal...quite frankly its b/c im too busy to long in anything about my day or my thoughts...but since im bored senseless baby sitting i figured id keep myself entertained by writingin ye old livejournal. things have been going good i guess...i work at chuck E cheese...it doesnt get much better then that...oh yeah, it does...id much rather be working in a colthing store...but they are sticklers on who they hire and how old you are to work. working sucks...but i guess you have to go what you have to do. only 3 more days until my butt is in chicago...im so excited...! i went to COPELANDs concert on friday night with kyle and some other friends...i was really excited about that...it was simply..amazing. im going to Mae's comcert on nov 15th...im real excited about that one too. its only like 50 more days until i go to canada...and see Mel again...im so flipping excited. yeah i have a lot of countdowns going...why..b/c im a freaking retard thats why. moday will be me and kyle's 3 month anniversary...not a long time...yet, it is and somehow...its been the best three months of my life. i feel like him and i have been together for so much longer then only 3 months. oh well. okay so now im just rambling...and no one is going to comment...so its useless. pz
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im so sorry livejournal for negleting you...
things are going great
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| romania/first day of school...yay/boo |
[04 Aug 2005|07:43pm] |
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well i got back from Romania on tuesday night at mid night. romania was stinkin a w e s o m e ! the VBS team worked two VBS' a day so we were all wiped out by the end of the trip...i myself was burnt out...i never got used to the time difference over there. and i still havent gotten used to the time difference here...im so jet lagged its not even funny. theres no words to describe the romania missions trip that i went on. the trip was just...wow...the team that was put together was amazing and the host home that i stayed at was awesome. each and every team member made a difference n the team...whether you worked VBS, did sports, sang, did drama or were the camera boy [kyle...lol...he worked SO hard right chels?...lol] but all of us together was awesome. when i first got there i was so down and so tired and i wasnt quite sure what i thought about being there...but after a few hours of sleep i was ready to go...and sure enough...there we went. i got to sing a little with kyle and with katherine and kristen at the youth meeting and on sunday morning-that was pretty cool. before the trip we actaully had to stay one night in tampa b/c our flight got delayed so we had to stay an extra night here...the next day we took off. the flight back was much easier then the way there...we flew from romania to frankfurt to washington dc to tampa...it wansnt TO TO bad it was just exhausting. chels and i learned a lesson to always have a male with us when we go somewhere...lol...good thing we did when we went for a walk on the mountain during our two free days on the way to the airport...although i miss the trip itself...i am glad to be home...when i got home i only got a few hours of sleep...then i went and got my hair done early weds morning...came home did some of my paper went to chruch and then to applebees with jack and kyle. woke up at 3 am this morning cuz i am still jet lagged and finished my paper went to school after buying beth and i starbucks coffee...:D and that was my day...so im real tired so im going to go to sleep but heres what my sech looks like...
1st-AP Comp
2nd-AP Govt/Pol
3rd-Marine bio
4th-American His Honors
5th-NEWSPAPER!!
6th-Adv Topics
7th-drama...may switch to french 3 though...
thats about it!
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| what a day... |
[17 Jul 2005|05:21pm] |
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so this morning...i wake up like every sunday morning and i get dressed and my parents had me drive to chruch and we would just meet up there...like every other ordinary sunday. so i got to chruch...and as i was walking up...my right side started to hurt really bad...and by the time i got into the pew i was about ready to collaspe...and so my mom and walkedout of chruch and we sat there for a while and my mom took me home. we were hom for a bout 15 minutes...she took me to a walk in doctors office...ug...worst place EVER!! i got the first blood and urine test of the day there. so then they said nothing they could do...and if th pain gets worse to go to the ER...so then my mom talked to mrs roberts and she got us connected with Dr. armstrong. so i went into the ER at UCH and i eventully made it into the pediatric unit after going thro trioage. they ran another bloodtest and urine test on me. then they stuck a cathorotr up me...which was really uncomfortable and then they went and took me for an ultra sound...where they didnt findmuch but some extra liquid...which is where they think that i had ruptured a sist on my right ovary...after that i was all done...so here i sit...required to rest..so...if you want to call...holla at the cell...if you want to drop by...you know the house.
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[12 Jul 2005|10:24am] |
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i decided i would update this puppy cuz i havent done so in a while. i went to MS camp and worked there...and then Mel came down and it was probley the best consecutive eight days i could have ever asked for...we just did a bunch of stuff and hung out- drove around...etc. so yeah she left yesturday and ive been alright, ive cried a couple of times and tried to get my mind off things but it doesnt work so well. we bought the tickets so i can go see her in the winter (where i will freeze my butt off) so thats like 5 and half months away...im going to try to read my summer reading books then write that stupid stupid essay...lol. so yeah...im just going to be chilling out today and doing nothing really. if any of you want to do something then let me know...i got my cell back. so holla at me. love ya'
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[25 Jun 2005|02:27pm] |
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k so this last part of this week dani and i have been spending some time together and i have very much so enjoyed it :D last night her and i went to Muvico with Mike and Buddy and i have to say that we needed that...not to mention it was alot of fun just going to hang out with friends that you dont hang with very often...many jokes were made and many laughs were laughed. her and i also went and saw mr. and mrs. smith on weds night. then on thursday we went to the internationl mall and filled out alot of applications for jobs...only for dani to find out she couldnt work cuz her mome wouldnt let her...OHH well...then she took me home and i stayed here and cleaned up my house. we fianlly got our carpet changed!! wOoo! lol well its only 8 more days until Mel is here! i leave monday for middle school camp!!!! and i dont have my cell with me at the time for a while so dont try to callit...if you want to talk to me call my house...dont call past 9 tho..i'll have to kill you lol jk jk! well i better go! peace out livejournal!
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| laughter eases the pain.. |
[21 Jun 2005|09:41pm] |
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so besides that fact of being disappointed today by bascially being SHUT DOWN by build a bear...i got to go out with two girls that i havent gotten to chill with latly, Kacy and Laura...it had been a while that i had been with them both together...and God, i was soo glad to finally get to chill with theboth of them. The laughter that comes from me when im with them is like no other...although i must say that each one ofmy friends causes me to laugh in a different way but when i'm with both if them, i can be myself and they dont judge me...granted of everything thats happened...we still are tight. We went and saw The Perfect Man...which by the way...didnt help me with my situation at all. i guess maybe theres one guy out there for me who wil accept what ive done wrong in my life and wont hold it against me...but the certain someone is the last person in this world i would want to hurt. But being with kacy and laura tonight just allowed me to be me...and all we did was go out to Moes and then to the movies...i didnt want to come home..but here i am...so...ALL IN ALL...i had a great night, havent laughed this long in ages...i hope we get to do it again girls...im glad i got to see you more Laura...WE HAVE TO DO IT SOON!!!
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| girls dont always have to like pink... |
[21 Jun 2005|01:44pm] |
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hey guys! well, this week has been going pretty good. i've just been chillin out at the house. last night i went and turned in my application to build a bear and the lady told me to come back at 3 today for an interveiw...so im going in! Im so excited...if i dont get a job there im going to apply at limited 2 and Moe*s but hopefully i wont need to grab an application at those places...hopefully i'll get to start asap and build a bear will understand that i have missions trips and all...but i'm sure that if God wants me to get this job then i will get it and if im not supposed to get it then he will open up another door. :)oh man guess what too...well for those of you who know that i have the gold mini iPOD know that there was a line of broken pixels that was across the screen...well last night i finally took it into the MAC store and they sent me to this thing in the store called the Genius Bar and they help fix it and all. well since i had already tried to send it in to the factory they gave me a brand new one!!! it was SOO cool...now i just need to put all my old songs back on there!! well, im going to go...mrs roberts is going to be here at to pick me up!!
only 12 more days until Mel gets here in town!! wooty woooooooo!!
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[18 Jun 2005|02:25pm] |
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i got back from camp last night and woke up at 6 am to go paint a chruch in welsey chapel at 7am...i actually enojoyed it...painting was fun and it seemed to have gone by fast. im sad to be back from camp but at the same time...im glad to be back. :D i missed people here and...having cell phone service...verizon and their "can you hear me now crap" doesnt work in AL...haha. but camp was fun...i got to room with chel chlo and skye!! woot! i have some pictures but i have to edit them so be looking for them later today.they are pretty good i guess. i am so tired, but...im kinda not at the same time...only cuz i got some sleep on the bus yesturday. so yeah, camp made me realize alot of things and i also realized that at chruch, even though i have my friends there and i have a good time at chruch...i still feel lonly...like NOT from God, but from the people there...i dont know its weird and im weird but i dont care, cuz its hard to put into words. sometimes i guess i feel betrayed...and its just weird. and sometimes i think that no one will probley ever know how it feels to feel like that and i think back to the bible and to Jesus and how he was denied three times and how he said "Father why have you forsaken me" while hanging on the cross...so i no that with out a doubt that he know how it feels and that he will be the ulitimate friend. ive learned about unfailing love and how to forgive some people that i had a hard time forgiving...so yeah...i cant say that im on a 'camp high'...cuz im not...and this is the first year, i learned alot of stuff at camp but im not on that rollar coaster that will go down a few weeks from now...ive just learned alot from camp...stuff that i will use for as long as i live...so yeah. anyways, i gotta go shower cuz i smell from painting and such....
i miss you still
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| lets get out of here |
[10 Jun 2005|02:36pm] |
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i got back from the beach...i havent been doing much..STUDENT LIFE CAMP 05- LEAVING SUNDAY!!! WoOOoOOOOH! im so excited. so that about it...the traditional meeting at applebees is gunna go down if i can go. not having my car really sucks...its sucks so bad right now and my parents have made me mad as usual so im just gunna go
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[02 Jun 2005|07:42pm] |
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dear livejournal,
why does alex have to be so amazing...he brought me a giant teddy bear and a smoothie and was here to help me when i threw the smoothie up...i see why i love him so much. he came by today and brought me the pancakes i was craving and even made them for me when he got here...then he let me lay against him while beth me and him watched the movies he brought. and even tho i look like a chipmunk he still comes and sees me and loves me.
dear livejournal,
im so glad i have a friend like Beth Hennie who has sat here the past 28 hours helping me no matter what. getting me more ice for my cheeks or heating my warm cloth...or making me her specilty mac and cheese. She sits her and watches movies amoung movies with me. i love her too. she tells me when i can take my pain medicine and gets me more water when i need her too. she was here yesturday too when i was throwing up too.
i got my wisdom teeth taken out yesturday...i look like a chipmunk...thank God for pain medicine...oh and thanks guys for the flower outside my car this morning...
♥
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| a smile well deserved |
[29 May 2005|11:35am] |
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i havent been able to update my livejournal latly. whoops.
well things have really started to look good. and i dont think i have
had a smile the past few weeks as it has been now. oh man, on weds i
get all four wisdom teeth pulled...i'm so scared lol. they are knocking
me out dead tho...they asked me if i would get real anxious and that if
i do then they should give me the anthestic above laughing gas i told
them to knock me out man...lol.so yeah, Dani and Beth are going to come
and take care of me while my mom and step dad are off to work...lol.
i'm sure we will watch movies and i will sleep the whole time and i
will probley starve myself half to death...lol. but if i dont update in
a while its cuz
- next monday i am going to the beach and will be there until Saturday...
- the sunday after i come home i will be going to Student Life Camp in AL WOOT WOOT!!!
- i come home for a week (phew...) which is probley when i will attempt all my summer reading and get it all done
- the sunday (or is it monday...not quite sure...lol) i am going to work at MS camp for a week
- okay so i get back the 2nd for that...and then the 3rd or july.... MEL COMES!!! I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!
- Mel and i are staying in anna maria island for 4th of July and probley for two more days...not quite sure...then we will come back to tampa and do whatever and have a good time (and we will make sure to call Lappano and Brian...because i promised them i would when she gets here...hahaha.)
- Mel leaves the 11th...:(
- Alex's birthday is July 17th
- Brian's birthday is July 19th (i will get him a post card and a quarter...lol)
- then i am home for a week and a half and then i leave for Romania for TWO WEEKS!!!! AHHhH! im so excited for that!
- then i come home Aug 2nd and school starts Aug 4th...boo...
- Mel's birthday is Aug 21st <---no relevence for now..haha.
okay so the birthdays i put in there- if they are wrong i am SO
sorry...lol. thats what i have written down in my planner...lol...so
hopefully they are right. haha. well im at my dads right now..not much
is happening Leevia turns four weds so her birthday bash was last
night...it was fun. well, gotta go find something to do in the
happenin' town of lakeland...haha
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| i want more then memories and pictures |
[20 May 2005|11:13pm] |
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i remember falling asleep in your arms like it was 5 minutes ago...
i'm sorry Lord...i hear you
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[18 May 2005|08:32pm] |
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well this weekend hasnt been too bad...beth birthday is today. school is out next thursday and i couldnt be happier, i just need to survive these exams and then i'll be okay! i cant wait for summer...Student Life camp, Middle School camp as a worker, and then MEL COMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited...like i dont think i could be more excited for summer to come...its just so sweet that she gets to come down here...she'll spend 4th of July American style...wooty woo. i'm so excited. sooo, this week i've really suffered the repricutions of not having Alex here in my day to day life. and i really miss him, as hard as i try not too....i do, every day i wake up praying that maybe today he will smile at me...or just give me a hug....or maybe that i'll get the guts up and go talk to him hoping hes not too busy to talk to me...but im going to stop there...so yeah...tomorrow i have a chemistry exam reveiw, then a study session at panera with a group from class and then i work at St.James with Dani from 6-8....then i come home...phew, long day. so yeah...thats that. i just got back from a run and i need to go do some other stuff!!
i still think about you
i still long to look into your eyes
like i did before
but i'd want to call you mine
should i hold onto this hope
or let it go...
please, i need to know
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| the love is only a memory |
[14 May 2005|01:18pm] |
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the days are getting better
and im moving on
instead of taking your hand...
i took God's
the doors are opening
and ive stopped staring at the closed ones
my heart is guarded with the sheild of His love
and i smile because Im happy
i'm happy to be me
i'm happy to be the one He's made me out to be
i wont look at you the way i did before
instead i'll look at you like a brother in Christ
the dreams were changed
but the memories will linger
live your life because its only the beginning
but when you dance
or hear our retired song
remember me please
when you look to the sky and the endless height
think of the love that was there
i'll be here always, near or far
i'll still go to the endless roads for you
i'll still pick up for a late night call
i'll still think of you on a saturday night
and i'll still pray its you on the other line of the phone
i know God's got bigger and better plans for you
go after them and dont look back
keep your eyes open..
dont be afraid to open wider to see a little clearer
i promise i'll do the same...
infact, i already am
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| good bye for now |
[10 May 2005|05:42pm] |
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i dont know if we'll ever meet up again
or if i'll ever love again
but i do know the i'll never forget
the memories that play over and
the laughter that rings in my mind
the smiles that embrace my heart
which force a smile upon my face
so please, in the hall way smile
because that smile is what gets me through
i need you to be happy
today when you and i said good bye
its not the end...so,
dont forget the way we loved
dont forget the things we said
youll be in my heart forever
and your love was always something to treasure
im sorry i couldnt be that one
that one to be the perfect girl
but one day youll find her... i know it
i dont want to lose you
but i need to let go
so please always know
that no matter what im still here
im just a phone call away
i'll miss those saturday nights
and those late night phone calls
but they'll take in a new meaning...
and we'll hang out, dont worry..
and i'll still call, you choose to awnser
you'll always be my friend
and even tho i thought i lost my best friend...
i realized that you never left me
and if you ever leave and we never meet again on this earth
we'll meet again in heaven...
and maybe i'll see and recognize you and run up to you
you can pick me up and swing me around.
or maybe we'll meet the same way we met here
i'll miss you, but i'll always be here
it wasnt a mistake...it was a blessing
and i thank God for everything he put me through
to lead me straight to you for the time
i'll never forget you or any of the memories made
i love you
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[07 May 2005|01:59pm] |
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well, the past few days since my birhday have gone by quickly yet very easily. so yeah, my aunt is on her way to do my hair becuase i cant do my on hair. Lyz was supposed to drop by today but she cant, so...maybe tomorrow...which is mothers day...SO, i hope you all got something nice for them. yeah well, i layed out today, last night dani beth and i went to Moes at like 9 and i ran into a bunch of fusion kids...then we left...and went to smoooothie king...where beth got the pineapple pleasure...okay yah long story... so then i came home and slept. i woke up, ate breakfest, tanned, showered...and no im just sitting here waiting for my aunt. im SO excited about tonight, when people ask me like if im excited im like YEAAAHH...but i dont sound very enthusiastic...but i really am excited...trust me. well i gotta go, i need to talk to my mom! love yu guys!!!!!!!!!!
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| cinco de mayo... |
[05 May 2005|03:32pm] |
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happy birthday to meeeeeeee!!! lol. well today was a good day considering the fact that im 16 now...i get my liscense next friday...friday the 13th...YIKES...jk i dont really believe in that. but uh yeah, theres balloons all over my floor because my mom put them there and so theres billions...okay not BILLIONS but like 25..yeah well me and my mom are going to eat tonight...so yeah, im 16 now what can i do...well i can date...too bad i dont have someone to date...:/ but yeah..today was alright cept for i got candy that i cant eat right now becuase im watching what i eat until sunday. i gotta go mucho love! thanks to those who said happy b-day or made me a card or got me something...it means a alot. i love you guys!!!
peace
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you know...i've realized...i've got something bigger and better going for me right now. and although im excited because i realize this it's also upsetting in a way, because i was satisfied with what i had, but i guess He wasnt, and so now i'm moving on with my life, and i cant look back, theres no way i can. but im happy now that i'm realizing this and that all works out for the better (i guess).
"And the view will never change
Unless you decide to change it
Don't feel like it today
Just show up anyways
And though life will take you down
It only matters if you let it
Get up, go through, press on
Today's your day"
-superchic[k]-
today's my day...i gotta go on a live it, no matter what, ill be pressing on.
♥
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| all in all |
[28 Apr 2005|06:01pm] |
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with everything thats happened to me i'm finding strength. its not like my heart isnt broken...cuz in a way it is...but when my heart got 'fixed' it was made stong again and it was never given a good amount of time to soften again...so i guess in a way it was lil pulled at but, im making it thro...i'm makine those steps forward in my life, and i have to say that i dont think it was possible for me to be this happy....but, i am. im looking forward to this weekend..tonight im chillin with sarah and tomorrow...well, i'll come home from sarahs and then i'll wash my car...probley lay out a lil and then go to my 12 dollars an hour babysitting job. then saturday at noon Mme Lovelady is coming to pick me up so her and i can go shoe shopping for my dress...then i dunno what ill do saturday night...then sunday...church, then i'll come home and ashley is going to tutor me for the algebra two test i have to take on monday...so yeah...i mean, its a relaxing yet eventful weekend...gotta go finish the homework!
♥
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